*Sunday, December 28, 2008*
feeling down...
This year xmas i feel v down again n again...last year still gt people celebrate wit me..but this year i'm alone...althought nw i'm nt single at all...but i still fell alone again...
During the xmas eve,she didnt call me at all...i feel lk i'm alone d...on that time may b i oredi feel that she's wit her fren d....i alone doing my assignment...i noe is my self problem...i didnt appreciate much to her..
1st,i too much tight to her..she's wan freedom...i didnt manege to gv her..coz i noe is she dun dare to tell me during this a few period...
2nd-sometimes i lack of money...need to ask her pay for me....
3rd-she's doesnt have any feel since the last sem d...
frm above i oredi noe that she's oredi wan to break up wit me d...juz she dun dare to tell me oni....scare that i will sad again..
that why she can manage to suffer till nw....
i'm sry to her..coz always cant make her feel happy at all..even myself also feel lk wan to scold myself....
when i'm back frm seremban frm my lecture wedding,i straightly go to mahkota parade.coz i thought she will going...mana tau raining so i cant meet wit her d.
所谓期望越大失望...i make her angry again...this time is more worst..i shouldnt say that i wan to together wit her....but i act is lk that..i shouldnt do lk that...very该死...no wonder people will angry wit u....
anyway i dun mind if my xmas is without present...as long as my life is ful of colour then is ok d....new year is ok la if celebrate alone as long as she's happy everybody in this world are happy living together...then my life will bcome more colourfull...
lastly i wan to wish them 有情人终成眷属...and i hope she will live happy more then last time we togther....
PATA PATA PATA PON♥
